Thursday, September 17, 2009

One year on

flags at the bestival

It's just over one year since I realised I was going to be facing the future without someone I thought would be with me forever. The exact day passed me by because I was having too much fun - which is as it should be. But a couple of things have happened at work that made me think, 'oh, when we did this last year I was...'

Time is the only thing that makes it better. It isn't a linear process, I didn't start from heartbroken and work through to feeling better. There were days at the beginning when I felt ridiculously positive, excited for the future. There are some days even now when I remember something and my heart races and my stomach sinks. In between there have been times of pure happiness and times when it felt like I would never even smile again.

That which does not kill us, makes us stronger. That thought kept me going and still does. The things we experience make us the people we are, and I am a different person now from the girl I was then. I have put my heart back together but it is different now.

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Back to front

I never normally go back to pages and re-do them. Life's too short. Once they're done, they're done and it'll have to do. Even pages for publication. This, though, has been an exception. I re-did the cover three times and then got cross and pulled it apart. It's not so different from the original, but just in a few little ways, and I think it works so much better.

front cover

This is also something of a tribute to the cuttlebug. It was my Christmas present last year from Mum & Co, but it's taken me a while to get in the habit of using it. I'm so glad I have (and a little bit cross with myself for taking this long). And now I can get titles in whatever colour I want!

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Day two

LSNED, 2 Sept
I'd make September a self-portrait month, except I'd run out of locations around the house within about three days. And there are other things in my life worth taking photos of. Not today, though!

Getting started

LSNED, 1 Sept
It's taken a couple of false starts but I am getting in the groove again now. For me this class is really about the habit of taking a photo every day, and celebrating something in my 'ordinary' life. If my lessons don't always coincide with those on the worksheet - well, it's not the end of the world now, is it?

Sept 1st we were blessed with some gorgeous sunshine - I ran back into the house to get my camera for this one.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009